would you?

i am having a hard time coping with my current situation... this change is causing too much sadness and negative ideas in me. why am i like this? i guess i got used to the time that we were almost always together. i see you more than thrice a week, and yet it isn't still enough. but now, i see you like once or twice a week if it permits us... it's slowly killing me... i just can't tell you this, i don't want to mess things up with you, and make you feel guilty with what is happening to me... i do feel guilty whenever i make you feel like that... it's as if im selfish because i don't understand your situation. am i being selfish? what if the time would come and things would turn around? how would you feel? would you want me the way i am wanting you? would you need me the way i am needing you? would you be selfish enough to be mad at me for not having the time for you? would you?